the song “Sugar we’re going down” means
This could be part of his dichotomy of wanting to be with her and being her “best” while hating her for using him. Also, “lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum” could be about how he feels like dying for being betrayed so badly (in his mind). And lastly, what I feel hasn’t been addressed in full light, is the line “a loaded God complex, cock it and pull it.” A God complex is generally referring to an individual’s (generally erroneous) belief that they are God or have superhuman abilities or powers -most commonly used when someone believes that have an inherint ability to get away with things or do things that most people can’t.
Here, he is probably referring to her attitude of being able to use guys without having to face any consequences, and it’s metaphorically used convey that the hurt he feels because of her attitude is like putting a loaded gun up to his head, cocking it, and pulling the trigger. In short, either the fact that she blows him off, or quite possibly the whole relationship (if you can even call it that), is emotionally killing him.
